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in the evening of bliss as we held hands and the fat old sun set
lost in time slowed and sublime until came the thunder like a million herds,
of mammoths marching Sparks of purple and blue surrounded the sky,
as every tiny creature felt the vibration of mother earth and as it poured we sat there, wet with water but drenched in emotions
our minds wandered as far and wide as they could while the droplets
with their gentle tap send a shiver down the spine once in a while,
As i looked into your eyes every time enchanted by their spell my mind
would wander afar but return to my heart with a smile, their daze for me
resemble the nostalgia of the beauty of complete darkness, oneness and purity in being one with one's mind. I yearned for your smile for but each time you did the time was worth the while . Where did you come from ?
i don't know but am glad you came and read me like a open book .
why? i don't know my self . but what i do know is that when i held you and looked at your smile under the dark red sky soaked in rain soaked in my soul .
There was no more confusion
There were no more doubts
There were no more questions
There was no fear . I let go of myself

I was in love

Change

Hard work  and struggle ,razors and polish,mornings and coffee, people and politics,pride and shame,

forgiveness and heartbreak,new found love and long lost paranoia,journals and submissions,Cooking and cleaning.................................................. this is how life is and slowly evolving further the uncertainty of the future has never been looked upon with such lightness .....................i would say so far so good but hardly any time for the most important person deep down inside which is me!

"It's impossible." said pride. "It's risky." said experience. "It's pointless." said reason. "Give it a try." whispered the heart.

but circumstance...... ah circumstance

Walls broken ego left behind a sudden jolt

"Before I met you, I was always considered the strong one, the one who never got hurt.. I could do anything and never fall. I felt like I was the epitome of invincibility.. of confidence.. Now you've come along, you've broken my heart, and you've shaken me from that really strong foundation that I had spent years constructing. I foun...d out more about myself than I ever had before. I found that my foundation wasn't as strong as I thought it was .. I found that love isn't all it's cracked up to be .. and I found that this time, maybe I won't be able to get back up quite so easily.." (-_-)