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in the evening of bliss as we held hands and the fat old sun set
lost in time slowed and sublime until came the thunder like a million herds,
of mammoths marching Sparks of purple and blue surrounded the sky,
as every tiny creature felt the vibration of mother earth and as it poured we sat there, wet with water but drenched in emotions
our minds wandered as far and wide as they could while the droplets
with their gentle tap send a shiver down the spine once in a while,
As i looked into your eyes every time enchanted by their spell my mind
would wander afar but return to my heart with a smile, their daze for me
resemble the nostalgia of the beauty of complete darkness, oneness and purity in being one with one's mind. I yearned for your smile for but each time you did the time was worth the while . Where did you come from ?
i don't know but am glad you came and read me like a open book .
why? i don't know my self . but what i do know is that when i held you and looked at your smile under the dark red sky soaked in rain soaked in my soul .
There was no more confusion
There were no more doubts
There were no more questions
There was no fear . I let go of myself

I was in love

Change

Hard work  and struggle ,razors and polish,mornings and coffee, people and politics,pride and shame,

forgiveness and heartbreak,new found love and long lost paranoia,journals and submissions,Cooking and cleaning.................................................. this is how life is and slowly evolving further the uncertainty of the future has never been looked upon with such lightness .....................i would say so far so good but hardly any time for the most important person deep down inside which is me!

"It's impossible." said pride. "It's risky." said experience. "It's pointless." said reason. "Give it a try." whispered the heart.

but circumstance...... ah circumstance

Walls broken ego left behind a sudden jolt

"Before I met you, I was always considered the strong one, the one who never got hurt.. I could do anything and never fall. I felt like I was the epitome of invincibility.. of confidence.. Now you've come along, you've broken my heart, and you've shaken me from that really strong foundation that I had spent years constructing. I foun...d out more about myself than I ever had before. I found that my foundation wasn't as strong as I thought it was .. I found that love isn't all it's cracked up to be .. and I found that this time, maybe I won't be able to get back up quite so easily.." (-_-)

The Pines

At the mercy of the wind,

with the warmth of the sun

and the grip of the earth

the pines bow in grief

and stay ever so stern

By the kindness of the glaciers 

and the majestic valley as their guide

the majestic rivers of blue flow,

yet so calm but with a restless tide

This place where the wind blow's

drifting the pines to sound like waves

So one and content it surely 

vanishes all that craves

from ripples in a pond to the old tree

with its big bark and lines

Everything is so serenely eternal in the pines.

there she goes

As i sat today on a bus stop admiring the comfort my ass was getting after a long walk in this sprinkling weather i ran upon a rare sight of experience, a pink umbrella a top n shorts a small pony her beautiful smile under the pinkish orange sky this sight dazed me took me away with each increasing second as i gazed from afar i could hear the rain amplified with each drop hitting the earth tapping mercilessly against it and that's when i could see in each drop that fell and formed small pools with other ones, memories of a time so long ago but still like yesterday it reminds me of inevitable sorrow it reminds me of the tiny moments of happiness most importantly it's her smile that always reminds me that it was worth it all of it and things are the way they are for the best ...as the sight slowly disappeared i was encouraged to follow to go on behind but i stopped as i knew i could not have spoiled the pure aura of aesthetic beauty and happiness engulfed in each other

My path and objectives have...

My path and objectives have evolved and are seemingly clear to the end of this year. Its been along year with ton's of acceptence,growing and reasoning. A understanding has grown toward's life and what one should be doing in it. My mind wandered far and wide picking up thought's and smiling thru short lived dreams. It saw so many ways to redemption, yet it saw so very little. A dim and warm candle burns in one of the dark corners of my mind ,for i feel that this candle burns off my gut and this time that is what i'll follow. I be on my way armoring myself for the storm ahead not only to sustain it but to dissolve it.

september has passed at quite...

september has passed at quite a speed .it's been a while you know, some that cared don't and some that din't do.
a second a minute an hour a day annnnnnnnnd its gone!a whole fckin month.it's time for  me to  spin the wheel for me and i want to do this with all my might but it's my vary will that's fool's me into fooling myself again.not again not this time

The pillar of ash

Day to night
Night to day
fruitfull enlightment
youth wasted away
and as always the green leaves turn into a pillar of ash

Killing time, killing time
mellow and sublime
watch the stars see the cars
from being new till the crash
and the green leaves turn into a pillar of ash

Lay here without a sound
and get lost in thought's profound
spherical's as the coral's and sand
Warm as the water below the land
All that you care and worry, will go in the trash
and you'll sit smiling at the pillar of ash

Rise

There should be something far away
Something that will make a smile
Through these dark streets and long roads life seem's to be taking a while
Will we human's ever be able to measure our true efficience
Rising by breaking the bond's of interdependence emerging in self sufficience
That's the only path i feel to someday feel content and free
When freedom show's its true ray's of warmth, off the morning sun
Peace will clear our mind's leaving us to flourish and blossom like an undisturbed tree
In the true midst of nature.